Listening to God

Listening to God is not always easy. His voice is still and quiet, and unless you know what to listen for, you will miss it. With two small children, endless media bombarding all my senses, and all the noise, noise, noise that infiltrates my ears day after day it is almost impossible to settle down long enough to try and find God’s voice.

However, I believe God understands this about me and when he knows I only have a few precious moments of uninterrupted silence he will cram-pack as many things he wants to tell in the shortest amount of time possible. It sometimes makes me think (or doubt) is this really God revealing all these things to me? Or is is me trying to think of as many important things as possible before this precious moment of silence is annihilated? Then I will say to God, “If this is really your revelations to me, then please show me something to remove this doubt.” He has yet not to. Let me share an example with you.

We had planned to homeschool our children, then one day I became consumed with the idea of finishing my nursing degree. (Which is another story) So after discussing with my husband, we agreed that I could pursue my degree when the kids were old enough for preschool.  I also used to want to blog, but I became too consumed with what people might think of what I would have to say so I gave up on that idea too. I prayed about it for awhile, and I know I heard God say I was making the wrong decisions but I pushed Him away and didn’t listen. I was too afraid to go against the norm. Then I would pray again for “direction in my life” and it sounded a little like this:

Me: God, I just don’t know what the heck I’m doing or where I’m going in my life. Please show me some direction here!

God: Chelsea, I’ve tried to show you but you ain’t listening to me!

Me: Well, if that’s really what you want me to do. Could ya make it a lil’ more concrete for me? I’m still new to this praying thing.

God: Watch and wait my child.

First of all, God really did say “ain’t”. Secondly, he really did prove himself to me. What happened next was pretty darn cool if I say so myself. I entered a contest on a blog, Good Morning Girls to be exact, to win a ticket to go to a ‘Mom Heart Conference with Sally Clarkson’. I read a tiny bit about it and thought it would be fun to go to a conference about ‘mom-ing’, but I knew there was no way I would buy a ticket on my own accord though. But lo and behold, I won!

Apparently Satan didn’t want me to go, he put so many obstacles in my path to getting there it’s unreal. Tragic things at that. In the midst of it all that was going on, my prayer was still for God to show His direction for my life. The morning of the conference, which at that time I was NOT going, my cousin Jennifer texted me and asked if I would like to go with her. Desperate for something lovely in my life, I agreed and went.

I spent the next 48 hours with a bunch of blogging, homeschooling wonderful women. In two short words it was life changing.

Granted, not all the women who went were bloggers or homeschoolers or even a combination of the two. However, the women I hung out with and talked to did. If that isn’t God proving himself to me, I really don’t know what else is. Not only did he talk to me, he ran me over and knocked the wind out of me. God is BIG that way.

So here I am with my first blog post. I don’t know what is going to happen with this blog, what it’s going to ‘look’ like or even be about or anything else but I found a rare moment of silence tonight and God told me “to get up and go write” and for once I don’t doubt it’s Him and I obeyed.

Learning as I go,



8 thoughts on “Listening to God

  1. This is awesome !! I have a blog on here too,I don’t always blog as much as I’d like but when I do I feel great !!

  2. Amy Burks says:

    So proud of you for pushing through that fear and doubt! We were praying hard for you that morning. I didn’t even know you and the Lord was telling me that He needed you there! I am so glad you were obedient and were praying also so that you were comfortable enough to come and spend the weekend with us! 🙂
    With much love and many blessings!
    Amy Burks

    • That’s wonderful to hear Amy! I really felt your prayers that morning.The moment I met you all I really felt comfortable. Thanks for being so sweet! it’s so reassuring to me to know that there are genuine and caring people out there such as yourself. =)

  3. bj says:

    Dear daughter, Many times these past few months I have been frustrated, angry and just plain mad. I have wondered if we had made the right decision. Surely God could see that I was not a good example of love and kindness. I apologize to you and pray you forgive me. I know now why He put us in the same place. 1. So I could watch my precious grandchildren as they grew and 2. God answered the prayer of Mine and Pop’s heart. ” please put people in our children’s path that will help them find their way back to. you.” He did! 3. God is teaching me to love with an unconditional love and he is using you, my daughter of my heart. Keep listening to Him, He won’t lead you astray. Love B

    • BJ,

      What can I say? I know God knew what he was doing when he sent me to you. I love you and James so much and am forever grateful to have the two of you in my life. I know it hasn’t been easy, but I’ve learned so much from you guys this past year. Thanks for opening your home and your hearts to me.

  4. Aww, I love you Chels!!… And Amy… and BJ 🙂 And you know what else? I’m so thankful I obeyed. I honestly didn’t know if you would feel comfortable enough with me to come to the conference anyway just because I was inviting you, but I knew without a doubt that the Lord wanted me to extend that invitation regardless how I felt! I’m learning time and again that, while it can sometimes be uncomfortable or painful, obedience always brings about joy on the other side!! And I am forever grateful that my God is the God of second chances… for all of us! 🙂 ((HUGS))

    • I think your invitation is what has changed my life Jennifer, it’s what caused me to say “God I’m your girl!”. I thank you for your obedience to Christ and thankful for your text messages to check up on me. I’m looking forward to getting to know you and Dwight more! Shame on us for not hanging out sooner, considering we live across the street, but I say it’s a ‘God-timing’ thing! lol

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